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"Blessed"



I am not a writer and I have no idea why I am doing this.  Maybe it is raining outside and I am bored.  Maybe I feel as if I have something to say.  Maybe not.  Most likely the latter.  At any rate, I am here and this is where I shall start.  I feel as if I am on a journey of sorts, a creative, mental road trip.  It may take me many places or this could be it.  We shall see :)

I am 45 years old and I am blessed man.  What does this mean exactly?  I have heard many people use this term (usually in church) and I sometimes shudder when I hear people say this. I decided that I must find out the meaning of this word so that I do not mis-use it or judge people for using it.

First of all, it has many different meanings....most of which I would NEVER use to describe myself or my life.  I am truly not "worthy of worship or made holy by religious ceremony".  I am not "consecrated or worthy of deep reverence or respect".  However, "characterized by happiness or good fortune" rang true and put a smile on my face. Actually, when or if I allow myself, these are the words that best describe my life.   

Let's break it down...................Happiness. Yeah, I'm happy.  Well, I am.  I laugh often.  And I make it a point to surround myself with people who share this passion with me.  I have had counseling and I take my medication to ensure that I am able to maintain this aspect of my life.  Never underestimate the power of a good mental tune-up and your happy pills.  It took me years to understand that feeling good is not always a natural process.  We often have to rely upon outsiders to ensure a daily smile. 

Good fortune. On a day-to-day basis I am able to do what most only dream of. I am given the opportunity to do something that I actually enjoy.  Now don't get me wrong.....it is still a job and I will never get rich from this.  NEVER. I would never recommend taking on the responsibility of owning your own business. I do remember however, what it was like to feel that I will never have the opportunity to make my life a better place.  At the end of the day I have no one to blame but myself for it not working out.  As a good friend of mine (and who also shares in this endeavor) always says "We could be working at Homedepot!"  Ain't that the truth!

Alright, let's wrap it all up. I know that I am loved.  At the end of the day, I will know that I have loved and have been loved.  I have some pretty amazing people in my life who I care very deeply about and they care very deeply about me.  Without love there is no happiness and there is no good fortune.  The only way that I am able to do anything is because I know that there will always be someone I can to turn to that will offer me what it is I need in order to make it through.  I hope and pray that I am able to be that person to someone else.  

So, for these reasons I believe I am blessed.  I am most certainly not holy or consecrated.  There will never be a church named after me and I would take pity on the person who would ever decide to worship me or anything I ever do (God forbid)!  But I am truly blessed...... I have had the good fortune to be happy and all of it is because I am loved.  I am a blessed man.